Has been fucking moody this few days, starting when my bbq at that day..
Well, its just because of 2 things that make me so moody.

1) its because of my EX bro, he came and when i saw his face, totally no mood to do anything.
2) its because of W2, was doing thing with ye hao phone, and saw their hands signal, saw the expression on her face, sigh !

Went home, accidentally make till W2 fall down, she was hurt.. Cycle back to bedok can feel that she in great pain cos she was holding on my shoulder and she pressed it til very hard, so i told her : If very pain just squeeze my shoulder hard..

See-ing her in such great pain, my heart totally hurt alot.. But there nothing i can do or i know what to do but keep asking if she's alright.. Went home, smsed her.. She went to sleep..

From that day night onwards, i keep on sms or call, she only reply 1 or 2.. after days, totally don even wanna reply me.. Hais.. My heart totally broke into pieces.. Feel like crying but i hold my tears. My mind keep thinking of her. Whenever i close my eye, the dark piece of mind appears her face.. I just cant stop thinking of her..

On sat, 21th. Meet sheryl, went to fetch her then came to my house to slack cos i not yet eaten.. She was playing games.. then after that about 3, went out to buy cigg and went to her house downstair to eat.. on the way going we sat at a block downstair near bedok view sec, leong quan sms me and got some misunderstanding. chatted on the phone.. I can see that W2 was playing happily and tonning with them, now don give a fuck darn about me after u got them, now i know what kind of person you are. Seriously if u wanna help them go ahead, i don mind cos i can tell that u helping leong quan that day.

I seriously fucking disspointed and sad about it, do you know ? I didnt know that you will treat me like this. Maybe this is your ownself ? Showing out your true colour ?? I don know, i seriously don know. But i fucking cant held it, i didnt wan my tears to drop but you really hurt me alot, maybe you don give a fuck or don even care about me bahs.

After settleing the taiji, then went to slack till 7 plus going 8 if i not wrong then she went home to sleep leh.. Then i walked home also and i reach home i went to sleep..


Till now, i'm stilling thinking about you
thinking why this would happen when we were so close,
thinking what were you thinking in ur mind now,
thinking why u treat me like this,
thinking what make u help them rather to help me..

I'm so cofused, sad, disspointed..
I'm hoping that we were that close like before..
No1 can break our close friendship..
How i wish that i can have u back by my side.. =(